Having someone amazing, in your life, is an absolute BLESSING. Someone that sincerely wants to know how your day was and how you're doing. Someone that always takes the opportunity to tell you just how much you mean to them, and how amazing they think you are. Someone that sacrifices their sleep JUST to talk to you. Someone that asks to go on video call with you JUST because they miss your face and voice. Someone that makes you feel important... Even on your darkest days, when you feel like no one would care if you disappeared. Someone that purposely does anything and everything they can to make you smile and laugh JUST because it makes them happy to see you happy.
I've honestly never had someone put in this much effort to make me happy...
I've always been drawn to older men. Men that are toxic. Men that are broken. Because I like to believe that I can "fix" them. I like to believe that I can make them not-so-toxic or not-so-broken. But it always backfires on me. I'm always their cure, but they're always my disease; I was saving them, but they were killing me. Trying to love a broken person is always difficult; You might get cut on their broken pieces. And trying to love a toxic person is like trying to mix oil with water; It just doesn't work.
But this man is different from everything I've ever known. He's extremely attractive, to the point where I thought he was a Catfish or something. He's into Fox Racing (Dirt Biking). He's polite, sweet, well-mannered, well-spoken, charismatic, intelligent, funny, and soft. He's a Leo. I'm a Sagittarius. And the love connection between a Leo and Sagittarius is VERY HIGH. Not that I follow astrology or anything, but I thought that was pretty cool. He looks PHENOMENAL in a suit. The only issue is... He's SIGNIFICANTLY younger than I am. Which is something I've always tried to avoid. He's legal, of course. He's just extremely young. I guess it just shocks me that someone so young can be so much more mature than all of these older men I've been drawn to. If him and I ever did get together, my parents would absolutely LOVE him. And his grandparents raised him. Much like my parents are raising my niece. So that's something that he can relate to.
And he said I could have his hat. Which is amazing. A guy has never given me an accessory, or piece of clothing, before. So having his hat would be something absolutely amazing.
And the one thing that I absolutely LOVE about him is that he doesn't care dismiss my weight. If you tell a guy, "I'm so fat." they usually respond with, "You're not fat." and that's kind of silly. With him, it's different. If I tell him, "I'm fat." he responds with, "I don't care. I like fat girls. I think you being fat is adorable. I think you're perfect. I don't like slim women." which I think is so much better. Instead of dismissing my weight, he ACCEPTS my weight. And that's a HUGE difference.
He lives out in Arizona. And I've always wanted to live there. Even my father has always wanted to live there. So if anything did happen between us, I could always live in Arizona. Just like I want to. And my family would love to visit Arizona again. So that works out perfectly. I'm obviously not making any big plans to be with this guy or move in with this guy. But it gives me one more reason to want to go to Arizona. And even if things don't happen between us, I still want to go to Arizona.
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