I'm just so happy that I found the man I want to spend forever with.
A couple of people told me not to get my hopes up. They said it wouldn't work out, because he's a few years younger. Needless to say, those people are no longer in my life. I've been with older men. That also didn't work out. So does age REALLY make a difference? I don't think so. Despite Steven being a few years younger than me, he's also been the most amazing man that I've EVER had in my life. He's romantic, sweet, compassionate, loving, affectionate, funny, polite, respectful, courteous, kind, caring, gentle, well-dressed, well-spoken, very intelligent, and everything in between.
Every now and then, I get into some pretty terrible "moods". I can become quite unbearable to deal with. I can FEEL myself being moody, but I can't stop it. I don't get angry, but I get very upset. To the point where I actually start crying. I've never had anyone that could deal with my moods, either. They either ignored me (Which made my moods a billion times worse), or they would make me feel like I was genuinely crazy for feeling such ways. And with Steven, he's always been very sympathetic and comforting. He's never once ignored me, or made me feel like I was crazy. He handled me AND my moods very well. Once I do finally calm down, I always apologize for being so crazy. And he always tells me how much he loves me, and that he would be willing to put up with any mood that I'm in. Which means so much to me.
The fact that a 20-year-old man is more mature than most men in their 30's is quite astonishing. And, honestly, older men should definitely be ashamed that they're not as mature as they should be.
Maybe it's because my boyfriend was raised by his Mennonite grandparents. He learned how to be a gentleman, at a very early age. He learned respect. And he learned how to treat people. He loves his grandparents VERY dearly. And he doesn't want to disappoint them. And he has told me numerous times that IF he ever mistreated a woman, his grandparents would disown him. His grandparents know everything about me. And they already love me. And if Steven ever cheated on me or hurt me in any way, his grandparents would disown him. He's told me numerous times that he'd never cheat on me or hurt me, though. He always says, "I swear on my family that I'd never cheat on you or hurt you. I love you." And since his family means everything to him, I completely trust his words. Which is still pretty new for me. After everything I went through with my last ex-boyfriend, trusting people has been hard. But with Steven... Trusting him just came naturally. Of course, I'm always going to be insecure and think that he MIGHT do those things to me. But I love him. And I believe him, when he tells me he loves me and would never do those horrible things to me. I trust him, completely, with everything. And he's the only person I've ever put that much trust into.
Since Steven will be here soon, I decided to go ahead and make his airport sign. And since it's October, it only made sense to make him a Halloween themed airport sign. I worked REALLY hard on it. And I personally think it turned out FANTASTIC. He thinks it looks good, too. And he even told me that I put so much effort into everything I do for him. Which made me feel REALLY good.
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