Sometimes, things just don't work out the way you planned...
My boyfriend was supposed to stay here from October 18th until June 13th. Unfortunately, his family wanted him home for Christmas. Even though they were okay with him being here until June, they changed their minds. We found out a week and a half after he got here. He asked to use my phone, he called his grandparents, and his grandfather asked him to come home on December 20th.
I'd be lying if I said I was okay with him going home. In fact, I don't think I've stopped crying since that night. They've spent every single Christmas with him. Did they really need to spend this Christmas with him, too...? It's just not fair. Why do bad things happen to good people...?
Today was really hard on me. After 2-months of spending every second with Steven, I had to watch him leave. We did everything together. We slept together, we showered together, we brushed our teeth together, we got dressed together, we went out together, we ate together... And now it's all gone...
We've been together for 7-months. He's the first person I've spent my birthday with, that wasn't family. But I've never spent Christmas or New Year with someone, either. I was hoping this year was going to be different. Unfortunately... I should have lowered my standards.
After he went through his gate, he had 2-hours before his flight boarded. The entire time, he never messaged me or called me. He promised he'd call me, as soon as his flight landed, but that also never happened. It makes me wonder if I did something wrong. Why wouldn't he want to talk to me...? Last night, he kept telling me that he'd always be mine, that he loved me, and that he wanted me to come visit him. And now... I don't even know what's going on.
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