Sunday, December 16th, 2018 at 9:30pm EST

Tomorrow is my 28th birthday.  None of my "friends" even bothered sending me a birthday card.  I shouldn't be upset about that, but I am.  I go out of my way, every single year, to get my "friends" birthday cards.  And, every single year, NO ONE remembers to get me a birthday card.  The same thing happened for Christmas cards, too, actually.  And cards aren't exactly cheap.  And when you get enough stamps, that's also pretty pricey.  I go out of my way to get my "friends" birthday cards and Christmas cards, every single year, just for my "friends" to forget all about me.  It just makes me feel stupid for believing that I'm important in anyone's life...

Actually, I should start classifying myself as "the pushover".  I'm the person my "friends" come to when they NEED something from me.  And my dumbass ALWAYS does whatever they need from me.

And then I end up feeling guilty.  Why?  Because people always tell you, "You should give without expecting anything in return." But when I keep on giving, without anyone even appreciating my efforts OR thanking me for those efforts, I'm making myself look like a damn idiot.

At least I have my husband.  And, unlike everyone else, he actually goes out of his way to make me feel special and loved.  I get all the cuddles and kisses I could ever ask for.  He's patient, kind, loving, and understanding.  I know I'm not the easiest person to be with, but he never makes me feel guilty for being myself, being overweight, and having these mental health issues.  He always makes me feel like the Queen of his heart.  And that's all I could ever ask for.  As long as I have him, I know I'll have a best friend that would bend over backwards for me, just as I would bend over backwards for him.

And my husband FINALLY helped me realize that the people that treat me that way are NOT my "friends".  So I dropped them.  And he helped me drop those "friends".  And, during the process, I kept BEGGING him to stop.  But now? ...I don't feel guilty for cutting ties with people that are toxic for me to be associating myself with.  And I don't understand why I BEGGED my husband to stop forcing me to cut those ties.  He did it, because he HATED seeing me so upset by these "friends" making me feel replaceable and nonexistent.  He HATED seeing me bend over backwards for "friends" that were USING me.

By putting other people first, you show them that you come second.

Anyway...

My husband and I FINALLY got our belated Wedding Day photos taken.  They were taken at the Florida Botanical Gardens.  It was SO BEAUTIFUL there.

 We also took some belated Wedding Day selfies, too...

My husband and I also got matching Wedding Day Date tattoos.  I chose the font!  I think it's called "Mistress Script".  It's very simple and clean.

10.31.2018

I don't think I ever posted a photo of the Michael Myers tattoo, that I brought up in a previous blog post...

Drawn by a local artist (WhackInk)

Tattooed by Mike Strong (727 Tattoos)