There are times when I wonder what it would be like to just disappear for a little while. I wouldn't disappear on my boyfriend, of course. Definitely not. Especially considering he helped me, mentally. Ever since we started talking, he made me want to stop self-harming. Even before we were officially together. I haven't self-harmed since he's been in my life. So I could never disappear on someone that had a HUGE positive impact on me. But everyone else...? I don't know. I never even hear from Taylor, anymore. So it's not like my best friend has even attempted to contact me. Blah.
Anyway... I pushed back getting my phone bill taken care of. So I currently don't have service to text or call people. I can still use the Wi-Fi, though. Which is great. I talk to my boyfriend through the Facebook Messenger app. That's how we do the phone calls and the video calls. And I don't need to have my phone bill paid for that. I just need the Wi-Fi connection. So it works out perfectly. I've enjoyed the time to myself. I needed some quiet time. But I'll most likely get my phone bill taken care of by tomorrow morning. I don't know. As soon as my phone starts buzzing, I'm sure I'll regret getting the phone bill paid. Blah.
The Promise Rings arrived, on Friday. I even got small Teddy Bear ring boxes. Why? Because my boyfriend and I love to use the Teddy Bear filter, on Facebook Messenger. And we always call each other "My Teddy Bear". So I thought it made things a little more romantic. I know guys are typically supposed to buy the rings, in a heterosexual relationship, but whatever. Guys also deserve to be spoiled. You know? And since he treats me like a Queen, I'm going to treat him like a King. He's only been in 2 relationships and they were both extremely short. So he's never been spoiled by someone. Then again, I think it's expected for men to be the ones that spoil the women. But again... I'm not like most women. I enjoy spoiling the man I love. I want to show him that I love him and care about him, and that I'm not going anywhere. I bought him a comforter (Because he NEEDED one), I bought him new socks (Because he NEEDED them), I bought him Nioh (Because he said he wanted to play it), and I bought US Promise Rings. I'm going to get more enjoyment from the Promise Rings than he is, though. But he said he loved them and couldn't wait until he gets to wear his. So that makes me super happy.
So... Photos of the Promise Rings!!!
LoveBug - BLACK - His Ring
BooBear - BLACK - My Ring
LoveBug - SILVER - His Ring
BooBear - SILVER - My Ring
LoveBug & BooBear - BLACK
LoveBug & BooBear - SILVER
LoveBug is my nickname for him. BooBear is his nickname for me. So the outside of the rings were engraved with our nicknames for each other. And on the inside of every ring, the date we were officially together is engraved. So these Promise Rings have A LOT of meaning to me.
When he's at work, on a break, and he asks if he can call you. MY HEART!!! He's just so amazing.
How beautiful is it to find someone that makes you feel everything, after you've felt nothing for so long...?
He always makes me feel special. He always tells me he loves me. He always tells me how beautiful, gorgeous, and adorable I am.
I've always felt like men were just really good liars, and were always doing things they shouldn't be doing. Then again, I've always been put in those situations. Distance sucks. But for the first time in my life, I'm not worried about my partner doing things he shouldn't be doing. For the first time in my life, I completely trust my partner. He hasn't given me any reason to NOT trust him. He's making a HUGE effort to make me feel loved and special. He's buying an airplane ticket to visit me. AND he's not even remotely interested in talking about sex OR sending and receiving dirty photos. I honestly don't think I have to worry about "being careful" or "keeping my guard up". He's extremely polite, extremely respectful, extremely sweet, and extremely affectionate. And men that put in THIS much effort to keep a woman happy...? They're not jerks. And my boyfriend is the furthest thing from a jerk. Yeah, some people are really good liars. Yeah, some people are capable of living a double-life. But I'm honestly not worried about him breaking my trust. He hasn't given me ANY reasons to doubt him. All he does is make me happy. Even when I'm being a brat, he does his best to make me happy. Even when he's had a long day at work, he does his best to make me happy. Not once has he ever told me that I was "too much" for him to handle. Not once has he ever called me a horrible name. All he does is show me so much love. And I love him so incredibly much.
I decided to make a collage of some of my favorite photos of my boyfriend. It was incredibly difficult to narrow it down to just five photos, buttttt... I somehow managed. I cropped a few of them, since they were video call screenshots. I just wanted this collage to be photos of HIM, so I cropped myself out of the screenshots (Top Right, Bottom Left, and Bottom Right). Geez, he's so attractive. But I love him for so much more than JUST his looks. Obviously.
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