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Tuesday, January 9, 2018

Tuesday, January 9th, 2018 at 2:45am EST

Last night, Steven told me the MAIN reason why he wants to get a job down here.  Apparently, he wants to stay until late July.  His birthday is in late July.  And for his birthday, him and his family always rent a summer house for a few days.  So he wants to stay here until late July, buy BOTH of us a round-trip airplane ticket there and back, have me stay with him and his family, and then BOTH of us fly back here.  I wonder how long he's planning on staying here, once we get back here.  I'm assuming it'll be sometime in August.  And in order to go back home, he'll need another airplane ticket.  And after dropping nearly $1,000 on TWO round-trip airplane tickets, I'm unsure how that will work.

Of course, these plans aren't set in stone.  Things could change.  It's possible that he'll just buy a round-trip airplane ticket for himself, and see me as soon as he gets back here.  Things still need to be sorted out.

Especially since his grandparents are Mennonite.  If we both flew back to his place, I don't know where I'd be staying.  His grandparents don't want us to be in the same bed, in their house, since we're not married.  And they don't have the extra space for me.  Steven actually mentioned that we could get married, as soon as he gets a job over here, and then it would no longer be fornication.  Since we'd be married, we could stay in the same bed.  And that's really the only option, at this point in time.  They don't mind if we sleep in the same bed HERE, or at the summer house.  Just not their house.  Which I understand.  But since we'd be flying in a day or two before the summer house trip, I kind of need somewhere to sleep.

But I'd really love to marry Steven.  Having him as my husband would be amazing.  We already refer to each other as "Husband" and "Wife", anyway.  Even when we buy each other cards, we buy the ones aimed towards married couples.  But having him as my LEGAL husband?  That would be BEYOND incredible.  I'm still not sure if he was being serious or just joking, though.  I hope he was being serious.  I really want to marry him and be able to spend his birthday with him.  But if we aren't married, I won't be able to go to the summer house.  I'd have nowhere to stay before the summer house trip.

A lot of fine details need to be sorted out...

...But IF we do get married, when he's here, that means I'm going to have to go through A LOT of work to get my DMV learner's permit changed to my new name, as well as get my bank cards changed to my new name.  That part is the only downside.  Dealing with government people SUCKS.  And costs too much money, too.

Blah...

My boyfriend is really excited about coming back here.  He says he misses my cuddles and misses my kisses.  He really loved when I would cuddle him from behind and kiss his neck and shoulders, before we fell asleep.  I loved doing it, too.  But seeing how excited he is?  It's absolutely adorable.  He keeps saying, "I don't know why, but I ALWAYS get excited about seeing you.  Nothing else has ever made me this excited."  And hearing him say that makes my heart melt.  It's nice to have a MAN that treats me so well.

I already bought Steven's Valentine's Day and Anniversary cards.  Unfortunately, he hasn't given me any ideas about the gifts he might want.  He keeps saying, "I already have you.  What more could I ask for?"  And it just makes me feel so grateful and so thankful for him.  But I understand what he means.  I would LOVE Valentine's Day and Anniversary cards from him.  But when it comes to gifts?  I have no idea what I could possibly ask for.  As long as he spent those two days making me feel loved and special, I'd be completely happy.

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